Harvard has a free computer science course (but you have to pay for the certificate)
I’m still doing it anyway.
I’ve begun meditating, the structured kind. I waited until I met a guru, I just couldn’t trust YouTube, especially with all the influencers now and how Capitalist Spirituality has become. Buddhas in the TJ-Max, holding car-key trays. 10 day yoga retreats for 800$. This lady who I’ll call GG, she studied under Stella Adler, then under the elderly women of the native nations in upstate New York. I’m bad with indigenous names, (I’ll ask her to spell it for me next time).
She didn’t tell me to look for the three pearls or gems of wisdom outright. I had told her that I had read a thing or two about buddhism but given my past, was afraid of choosing one school of thought (to put it shortly).
Something that’s been dragging me back from writing (but not in a bad way) is my new relationship. It’s an intense labor of love when your first real relationship is more serious than a U-haul lesbian’s. We’ve skipped a few steps. Their goth ass is never going to meet my biological parents. But other steps we’ve had to draw out way longer, in our early twenties, we’re sitting in the emotional/mental DMVs and Doctor’s offices, setting up our routines… tripping over the tripwires of insecurity.
They encourage me to do more: more singing, dancing, painting, piano, coding, walking…
I’m entering a new world where I’ll never celebrate Thanksgiving again and I get to celebrate Halloween and Pride. I will bless my meals in the names of pagan gods. I wear black corsets over, and garters under lace tutus. I live in a world where demons are no longer tormenting me, and nothing really is frightening me but some things are angering me and I’m learning how to use my anger to fuel charity instead of bottling it up. (btw if you’re a fan of “Contrapoints” highly reccommend the YouTube channel “Fab Socialism”)
I’m also pretty good at chess now and I like playing billiards. I don’t really have any other weird new quirks that I know of. There’s a ton of stuff I’m still not concentrating enough on but I’ll get back to you all when I’ve actually started concentrating on it so that people will actually be able to see progress.
Love you guys, and thank you for reading all this time. You all know I’m going through a heavy transition period- oh yeah. Just remembered I’m non-binary now.
Anyways I’m going through a major transitioning period and I really appreciate your continued appreciation of my work however it shapeshifts and evolves.
Here’s to the next stage!